Posted on March 8, 2011
Ahhh, the beginning of Track season. 32 degrees, but the sun was out and the wind was dead. “Shorts and T-Shirt” weather, as one of our brightest observed. My view of the track has always been linked closely with pain…and joy…and hurt…and triumph…and nausea…and pride…and…well, you get the picture.
From the other side of the track as a volunteer coach, I recalled my initiation into track at fifteen. A green pea, I thought over a decade of ballet wold lend me the coordination and speed it took to be a hurdler. Yet, I took notice of how much fun the distance runners had out on their runs… and I fell over a lot of hurdles.
I laughed as some of our Cross Country runners deserted the distance crew to be sprinters, and wondered what painful episode caused the sudden change in heart.
Quickly pulled back to reality by my run-away child, I caught the glance of every non-parent in the weight room as she stumbled hazardly through bars and leg press machines.
Practice rolled on, and I fed my 8 month old a bottle while attempting to coax my stubborn ‘almost-3” year old down from the bleachers, I collected goals and last week’s mileage from the distance runners. Learn new names, calculate workout paces, establish new goals…and chase after my 3 year old who believes with all her little heart that she can keep up with the ‘runners’ as they exit the track to log some miles.
The thrill of the “chase” made me question my motives, Why coach? Why drag my 2 kids up to the track?
Truth? Track is a piece of me. My little peepsters misbehave and make the experience a wonderful combination of gut wrenching and embarrassment on some days, but being at the track never was a completely comforting experience.
I had drifted towards distance runners, just like I had at fifteen.
I always wonder how people know what their passion is. (Little kids on American Idol that say they’ve known since they were 2 they wanted to sing.) Perhaps it’s just what you gravitate to….what you love so much that any pain that goes along with it is overshadowed by the triumphs.
Maybe my daughters will learn to love distance running and it’s masochistic ways, too. If not in running than in something that they question why they love, until they are out there in it. I’m trying to instill an experience in them that will help shape their determination, by simply showing them who I am. I might not have it all figured out yet, but maybe that’s a good thing to accept early on in parenting.
Practice isn’t perfect, but it can make it.
Happy Track Season,
Posted on March 3, 2011
I’ve always encountered screaming children while running errands. Knowing with certainty that one day those would be my kids screaming their heads off in rage, I’ve always lent a sympathetic nod in that direction and a thankful prayer in an upwards direction.
Well, my day came today. As if I haven’t had enough warning from past encounters with in-store tantrums, I consistently let my toddler pick out something from the dollar bin almost every time we visit the store. Well, she’s now gravitating towards collectible animals. A charming habit, which I’d rather tend to than be drowning in princesses, Barbies and dolls at this point. (sooner or later it’s inevitable, right?) However, these animals have surpassed the dollar bin budget. Time to pull back on the reigns.
How do explain money matters to a 2 year old? “No, you can’t have the $17 collectible dragon,” just didn’t seem to cut the mustard today. Let alone the , “No” to the bunny after her dragon answer meltdown.
Most of the time, my kid will put whatever it is back and follow me once I start to walk away. Not today. Oh, no. Not today. As I gradually started pushing the cart away from the ‘animals’ my little angel started screeching louder than I’ve ever her scream before.
Tears streaming down her face in anger, I picked her up and placed her in the cart without hesitation. Banking on her calming down when she saw she hadn’t rattled me, I was taken aback by what she did next.
Arms flailing…reaching out to hit me while attempts to jump out of the cart, she almost wacks her baby sister in the head at full force. So #2 had now joined her big sister in hysterics.
What to do? Check out or ditch what I’ve got and cut my losses. I decide to calmly push my cart towards the checkout, in hopes my lack of reaction would eventually quiet the madness.
Just as I reach the front of the store, arms start flailing and screeching gets a raise in volume. As a gut reaction I revert to damage control, yanking her out of the cart so she can’t hurt her sister. How in the world I kept calm as I talked her down from her crazy place of emotion I do not know.
(Oh, yes I do…help from above, I’m sure. Maybe all those “thank you for that not being my kid melting down” prayers lent a little sympathy. Maybe, just maybe. )
You know what? It worked. I calmly looked her in the eye and told her to give me a hug. She did, and I told her we can’t get everything at the store….what would people get you for your Birthday? Bought it. I waited until we were checked out and outside to talk to her about ‘the meltdown. ‘
“Do you ever get anything you want when you act that way?” Sniffle Sniffle. “N-N-N-Nooooo, Mommy.”
The real lesson here was for me.
#1. Stop spoiling my child by letting her get something every time we go to the store. Enough is enough. Time to start teaching my soon-to-be-3 year old the true “value” of the ‘dollar bin.’
#2. Patience is king. I think I’ll collect a pat on the back to me for not becoming a yelling, screaming, hitting in public parent, but…wow…I understand how it happens.
#3. PMS does not wait until puberty to start rearing it’s ugly head. (I think my Mom is right, once again.)
I’d feel a lot better about the whole thing if it were Sunny & 80. Oh, well. After a car ride home with #2 having a meltdown, I think wine time will begin a little early this evening.
Happy ‘Meltdown’ Day 🙂
Posted on February 28, 2011
Ahhhh…the last day of February.
Thank. The. Lord.
Let’s be real. This is the time of the year when even the most avid ‘I love the change of the seasons’ peeps want to hibernate, and we all get sick. Too tired of wearing hats, winter coats, boots, pre-heating the car for 15 minutes before we get in it. It all gets a little tiresome come the last day of February, so we get lackadaisical and end up with disgusting sicknesses. My family is no different. Right now, yogurt is our Pepto …hey …don’t knock it ’till you try it.
Think about it. When the sun comes out and the outside thermometer reads 3o or above, the spring coats come out. The same forecast in January? We’re not venturing out without the down puffy coat. I’m constantly reminded of how pre-mature my Spring fever is by the frozen lake at the end of my street. Just in case I get the urge to start looking for green shoots of life popping up through the ground, Mother Erie stands there to greet me with 10 foot chunks of busted up ice chunks to remind me that it’s still February.
The stores don’t help either. Do you know that if you happen to wait until February to buy a winter boots you cannot just go out and buy another pair! You’re left to squeeze your growing child’s foot in until they return to the stores in August. The flip-flops are on the end cap at Target but we’re in the middle of an ice storm.
Flip flops on the end cap in February remind me how many snowbirds are down in Florida, and how many of my friends from college actually moved South like I planned to. While they are surrounded by blue water and palm trees, I’m looking out my window wondering if I should call the power company before that freshly cracked limb falls on the wires. I’m usually not this salty about where I live. I do love The Land …it’s just been way too long since I’ve hugged a palm tree.
Last day of February …I salute you. Buh-bye.
St. Pat’s Day is coming …will we be slathering on SPF or scraping snow off the windshields? Who. Even. Knows.
But we’re one step closer to Sunny and 80…
Wow! The very beginning of Sunny&80. The first post. It’s amazing to see what God has done in my life and with this blog. Fresh on the facebook scene, I remember the feelings of frustration I felt watching old friends live in the warm places I longed to relocate to. Since this post, my parents have relocated to a permanent background of palm trees, too. And my brother. In fact, I’m the last of Five Alive still residing in The Land. But I’m not frustrated about it anymore. Though the angst to leave rises up now and again, I have learned to defer the urge to move for more of God wherever I’m at. Joy in the journey. He’s not a God of coincidence, so I know I’ve been placed purposefully …and I won’t miss a move if I’m focused on Jesus. There is great peace in working hard with what He’s given us, loving the people in our lives well, and watching expectantly for Him to meet us there and make a move …
I hope I’ve been able to pass along the encouragement and love He’s shown me through Sunny &80. This blog is a record of the life I’ve lived. It’s my prayer you see Jesus through it …because He’s been with me every word of the way.